I’m BAAAACK!
| November 1, 2015 |
Hello fit foodies. I’m sorry I’ve been so MIA. I was falling into a downward spiral, resorting back to my old ways. This year, I gained 15 pounds…. It may not sound like a lot but when you know how hard it is to work off weight, 15 pounds is a lot. I would eat healthy one day, and the next I’d be driving through In’N’Out getting my burger and fries. I wasn’t making it into the gym and honestly, I wasn’t really even trying.
While I was enjoying all the fun, I lost my motivation to be healthy. I was still posting on Instagram but I felt disconnected from blogging. I felt like I should practice what I preach. I made a few dishes that I could have posted but I felt like a poser. I didn’t want to post something healthy and share it with all of you and the next day eat exactly the opposite of what I cooked up. It just felt wrong.
Let me recap this crazy busy year of mine…
I was maid of honor (MOH) for TWO weddings! One of which was my one and only sister’s which meant that in addition to being MOH, I was sister of the bride which has a whole other list of responsibilities. Of course, I had a blast being MOH! But it’s time consuming (and expensive!).
In addition to my happily ever after duties, the 2015 Special Olympics World Games in Los Angeles, the largest sporting event in LA since the ’84 Olympics took place. Since I work for Special Olympics, you can imagine how busy I might have been throughout this whole process. Juggling work life and MOH life and gym life while trying to eat healthy.
My foot problems was also finally diagnosed correctly! The foot pains I have been having is a result of Morton’s Neuroma. Since being diagnosed, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Knowledge is the real power. When I feel pain, I know why. ‘Why’ is the best cure for anyone’s sanity in my opinion. Having doctors play trial and error is not fun and I feel so blessed finally knowing what the problem is.
Since I missed a bunch of stuff, I’m still going to post it all and back date it (with a note on the post that it was backdated). Here’s all the links so you can read up on everything I haven’t told you: (Bullet points will be hyperlinked as I post them. If they are not linked right now, check back in a week to see which new posts have been added.)
- Adventure Is Out There – Morocco
- Surf City Half Marathon – The Ups and Downs of 13.1 Miles
- Morton’s Neuroma
- Planning a Memorable Bachelorette
- Confessions of a Maid of Honor
- Tinker Bell Half Marathon & My Two Cents on Race Superstitions
- The 2015 Special Olympics World Games in Los Angeles
- The 10th Anniversary of the Disneyland Half Marathon & Overcoming Excuses
Now let me get back to the present. I feel like my normal self again. My house is finally getting purged of pink tulle and leftover pizza boxes and it’s starting to look more like a place I live in – fridge stocked with my healthy foods; clean blender bottles stacked up; and my gym doesn’t have a wanted sign with my photo on it.
It’s important to understand that everyone falls down. Only the lucky people can breeze through life without set backs. But the important thing is to not give up. While on this unhealthy hiatus, of course things ran through my mind like “will I always be this heavy?” or “maybe I should just accept that I’m larger than I want to be.” But you can’t give in. It took me 9 months to pick myself (and my lifestyle) back up – and it was hard. I was torn between wanting my carefree lifestyle back where I could stay out late and eat what I felt like and my healthy lifestyle where my evenings consist of a date with the gym and slaving in the kitchen to make my healthier dinner. But ultimately, I feel most like myself when I’m on the healthy track. I’m not hiding certain pieces of me or feeling any regrets.
I feel you. I’ve even heavy most my life too. Tried EVERYTHING. Weight watchers, nutrigarbage, fat-free crap, etc. it’s not until the last 3-4 years I a tuly began to read and teach myself. I ended up landing on a paleo diet, because me and the gym don’t get along, it worked out great. I finally started working out (barf) eating paleo (at least 80/20. Love ice cream) taking my vitamins, and feeling great. Then the holidays come. It’s an easy ‘4 month junk food festival’. You’re right. You just gotta get up and keep going. One of the biggest things that made a difference was, I got into intermittent fasting. As of this Monday, I’m back to eating clean, vitamins, and fasting. Feeling great! 🙂
The holiday weight gain is exactly why my gym decided to do a 90 Day Challenge right now. To keep us from going crazy through the holidays. I’m going to do a post on it soon. I’ve learned so much being forced to do things at 110% that it wouldn’t fit into one post so I keep dividing up my post into multiples. Loosing weight it hard. Especially when you’ve been big all your life. I can’t even imagine a day that I wont be heavy. Eventually, that breaks you down so I feel like weightloss is a constant mental battle of believing in yourself. Good luck on your diet and vitamins!
Yes! I usually do good on eating healthy. Its hard because I live in LB, and there is NO shortage of food spots around. Haha. I’ve done pretty good at keeping the weight off. Most of all……I’m happy. I went from 285 (heavy and happy) to 180. Currently, I’m around 190-something…..but should be back down to 180 soon. I have faith in you. 🙂
Oh, and I’m a HUGE burger guy. If I had 3 foods to eat the rest of my life……tacos, burgers, and nachos. Best burger I’ve had? Umami – Manly burger. Period!